As a minor in highschool who lives with her boyfriend (of 2 years), I had to have a termination back in September after finding out I was pregnant days before the dads birthday (Aug. 28). I dont want to regret terminating my baby but what if I get into a situation where I cant get out of? Thankyou all for sharing your stories + most of all the letter to the little light. Do NOT submit poems here, instead go to the. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. I would never say that Im over it and my biggest regret is not being careful enough to avoid getting pregnant in the first place. A boy or a girl? Im not pregnant. I went into the first floor bathroom and peed on that little white-tipped stick. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. Thank you for sharing your story. I will be 37 years old and have had previous abortions but after this miscarriage (I never had one before), fear that I will never conceive again came across me. Tomorrow I take the pills to expel the tissue. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. I hope everything will be okay. My name is also Ashley and im also at the 10 year mark. Thats when I called him and told him he needed to come home, that I wasnt mad at him anymore for all the horrible things he had recently done, and that we needed to talk. I told myself there was no way i could be pregnant. Like you, i have always wanted to be a mom and it was so hard to make this decision. I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. I am with someone who I cant bring myself to tell and I am starting to feel emotionally and mentally effected by it. I was 5 weeks and didnt know it. He says if i get an abortion we must split that Hell respect my decision but we cannot continue together. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. June 1, 2021 2:30 PM EDT. Your situation is mine. Remorse Is Forever By Im up and down about it all. Its what he wants. Not until Im sure. He advised me continuing the pregnancy would be a danger and I decided more so on my own after talking with my mother if it was the right decision to make for the baby. If you do it, please remember you are not alone and it does get better And remember (if you believe) God will forgive you. I wasnt going to tell him until I was so far along I could not abort but that sounds crazy. And try my hardest at everything I do. There was also this paranoia about who the dad was. Each holiday, any milestone or time marker, what my world would be if I had chosen differently. In a saline abortion procedure, caustic saline solution was injected into the mother's womb. Ive often wished we met sooner so we could of had a child together. And Im scared because Ive read what an abortion can do or affect my fertility. The last paragraph brought tears to my eyes. And it bothers me that my husbands doesnt realize the pain Im going through. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. My boyfriend and I have only been dating a few months. Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. Just since December is when I noticed I wasnt having my normal periods. I dont know if you have lived in regret or relief of your abortion before this moment, or what feelings his opinions have risen out of you now- all I know is what you decided to do with your pregnancy, whether that involved him ten years ago or not, was your decision. I found out I was pregnant exactly two years ago this weekend. Am i allowed to feel i did it for the baby? I feel like the biggest failure in the world. Published Jul 29, 2015. Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. I dont think Ill ever forgive myself, I dropped out of school and my life is a mess. I have been battling with the decision for some time now, had an appointment yesterday and didnt go because the voices of those who tell me I need to have the courage to keep the baby keep ringing in my head and those that guilt trip me on the decision of abortion and how wrong it is. God bless you and your family. But its only 5 weeks so its nothing more then a pack of cells still, right? It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems A Hand Yet To Hold By My husband has made this time incredibly difficult for me. Published by Family Friend Poems March 2017 with permission of the author. I just found out Im pregnant after splitting with my partner and having already gone through 2 miscarriages. I told my cousin and she said that his name sounded familiar and asked around. and I have no clue what to do. So afraid. A letter from baby to mom right before abortion Hi mom, how are you? I know what I will do and why I feel it is the best choice I can make, but I will never forget this little tiny creature that has visited me and wanted so much to be my family, as I so wanted to be hers/his. We argued and I prayed on it. And because I am one, I made the right decision. I feel so empty and outright irresponsible. My heart is breaking but I cant have another child on my own. In South Africa, 85 000 abortions were induced in the year 2010 according to abort97.co.za. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. When God made me, He gave me a soul How do you know? I pull out the test and show him the two pink lines. Im in my final year in university. I took a test when i got home from work and sure enough i was. I always wanted to be a mum I adore children but back then I couldnt keep it . I did it because I loved that little soul so much that I knew he deserved better. None of it matters. Your dads hand squeezes mine, although I dont think its purposeful, and he asks again, Whats wrong? I look him dead in the eyes, knowing Im about to change his life forever. Im 33. I found out I was pregnant on September 23rd, 2 weeks before my 21st birthday. Congratulations! Would you call that dad-approved? I dont know what to do at all. I cant make up my mind. Use "He" or "She" When Talking about Her Baby. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. God has forgiven you and you should try and forgive yourself. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. We chose to end our family after two children. Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. I got an abortion 6 days ago. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. We went to the clinic, me, my mom, and my boyfriend. No matter how much support one has, it can so easily feel like you are going through it alone. From the moment on, he has told me to get an abortion, that its not the time. Each day, I will continually honor you and thank you for making the sacrifice so I could become a head teacher and get my Masters degree; so your dad could take the steps he needed to stop drinking. Sending love xx. We, unlike many stories, are able to provide and give the child a good life. Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. I know my baby deserves a life I couldnt of given her now or at that time and I know one day she will come back to me, I get excited when i think about meeting her finally one day when we are both ready, I wish I had support here so I could cry to someone who gets it, Im 23 and I had my abortion at 5 weeks and three days in April. This is your decision and you must do what feels right for you. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. I hate myself already and now my boyfriend hates me too and I feel trapped. After I check in, I have to take another urine test. There was no internet to look up information, and she didn't know about pregnancy . I just wanted to say thank-you for sharing your story. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. I really commend you Shawn. But deep down I know I might regret it if I abort it. I dont blame you for choosing to terminate your pregnancy. I took away all the vitamins, iron, proteins, calcium and every bit of you in me. As you can imagine, childhood and progression through young adulthood is very hard for foster children because most of our supports disappear once we turn 18 or so and are no longer eligible for the child welfare systems services. Yes, Im still pregnant. The connection is like no other. When I first found out I initially was a bit upset but over a few days I grew very attached. Im stressed and feel so alone. To explain the center's work, Pinson told a story about a girl who showed up with her mom on the morning the Heartbeat Act took effect, asking for an abortion. Surfing helps, but I know the best thing for healing is time. I dont want you to go through thisit never does go away. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. In his remarks before Congress, Dr. Levatino describes in gruesome detail the procedure of killing a 24-week-old unborn baby. You'll be grateful in eternity! I just wish I presented her with an easy choice. Don't Forget That I Was Here By These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Im seeking a medium to try reach her. I had an abortion when I was an illegal immigrant my boyfriend that time wanted me to get an abortion. No one understands what Im feeling, I hate myself for this. And draw pictures, made especially for you. Im 18 and also 6 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend says I have to abort it. Ang, your situation is same as mine. That is my story which I have never shared. Ebony Angel B. no one is on my side. My first pregnancy ended the relationship because I betrayed him, although he would never step down from his responsibilities , and thats how he made me feel. It was at this point that I started to get really nervous, terrified actually. Would adoption be something you could manage? And chips. A young woman writes an open letter to the child she is about to abort and posts it online.. The baby has been name Baby Amanda Marie, for the name Amanda means "she who ought to be loved." I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. I took the morning after pill and it failed. I wasnt ready to quit my job. Many of my patients have gone through the same thing, and it is never easy. Must be awful. I just wanted to say thank you for writing this. Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. Couldnt take my meds or prenatals because the baby threw up everything. It all means the same thing. It's me. Im ready,but am I really ready? I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. In the last twenty minutes of my lunch break, I walked to Walgreens and bought the test thinking the employees must assume Im really irresponsible (I guess I was?). Im the same, my partner cant understand why it still or ever did sadden me, he says it was too early no heartbeat, for that reason he does not feel what I feel, I cry alone, still. I loved you, my first, my only.. But i wanted to say thank-you because your post was something i came across before i went in for my abortion and it brought me to tears. I already have a 1 yr old but im 5 months. I swallow hard several times until the pill burrows into the back of my throat like a rock. It is a deep sorrow. Im already a mom and I love my daughter more then anything. I regret my decision so much and cannot put it into words. No matter how he was conceived this baby wasnt a mistake not to me. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. I support her no matter what her decision is but ultimately I feel like she is too young to make the rest of her life set and stone. Jessa Duggar Seewald, best known for her role on the TLC reality show "19 Kids and Counting," recently shared in a YouTube video that she miscarried what would have been her fifth child. It haunts me every day . I want the baby, and he says not yet. Good luck with that husband. I was clearly going to get my period. I feel awful. I couldnt face a potential miscarriage, still birth or birth defects and my doctors had no guidance for me and what I was dealing with regarding my health. The technician asks me if I want pictures, and I say, I do. When she leaves to print them, I repeat the lyric from Gone and I cry more while holding my stomach. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. a desire to meet its mother; Reactions to this song have been divided. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. Marni Fults. Every day I feel like a monster. This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? Im working on it though. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world. In my mind, Ive raised a child on my own, and even with all the struggles, raising her has been the most rewarding experience ever. I want to be able to call you "Mom," and hear you say I'm yours. I cried so bad in the clinic and during the procedure that I still have nightmares and flashbacks often. However, reading this, even though it did make me cry, also made me realize I could look at this moment as something to grow from and not just bury it away as a bad memory. April S., New Jersey. He met my dad. Ill always be one. I dont feel like he was there for me as he should. i know my baby will be returned to me, someday. I know one day when everything is settled down and fine she/he will come again and Ill be more prepared. Im 27 years old and he is 32 years old. I was afraid, honey. Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. Physically or health wise and its not suppose to be this way. nothing was ever the same between us. Hi guys im 24 yrs old. I always thought she would come back to me somehow but only in my sleeping dreams and waking thoughts. I still was no where near ready for how much my life would have to change. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise. Ive been employed in my feild for the past 4 years (student hires are highly sought in this feild). Youre feelings and emotions emulate mine. Luckily I was able to talk to my partner who was incredibly supportive but there were so many reasons for this not being the right time for us. And to be honest, your dad and I werent using protection. The saline solution burned the baby's skin and poisoned him or her. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . but something I think people needed to read. The Baby Must Be. Maybe they never will. Abortion pills are the most common way to end a pregnancy in the United States and have become a focus for anti-abortion groups and Republican officials seeking to block access in their states. I know I would feel his kicks by now. I aborted my second child at 10 weeks 16 years ago and have regretted it since. Im struggling with this decision. The relationship was very toxic over all. He ignores me when Im upset and just goes to bed with that knowledge. Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. I was overjoyed but crushed the next day after he told me we werent ready and that I should get rid of it. And I too pray from the core of my heart that you all get back your unborn ones. To cheer you up when you're sad. If you can handle a child, have it. Can I ask what you ended up doing? I know thats the right decision but I cant stop crying or thinking about baby . It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. Know the Issues. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. God is never bored of you. I have never commented on a public post but I feel I need to do. We were told if we wanted children we would have to make a concerned effort. I feel like its hard to find forums where women arent either all regret or all confidant/fine with their decision. I found this whilst considering abortion. Cry Of An Unborn Child by Gabrielle Kruger - Family Friend Poems. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. He reminds me every day and he is resentful towards me like Im some kind of murderer. I was accepted into the Montessori teacher training program two days prior. I thought the tears would stop but they dont. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. Then I sobbed all night and I dont even know where it was coming from and I dont know if they will ever stop. The following article is one I submitted back in March 2017. I want two more children. I am so sad that I will never meet that child, but I also know that it would have been less than what we all deserved. Have you done it? The abortion will be via the pill (which I think is an awfully ironic name for it). For the first time in my life. I just keep crying. This is me right now,I dont know what to do its so hard. Realizing it is her choice and respecting her decision has been rough but weve grown these past few weeks. I tell you where eats 4 in a table, there is always a place for a fifth one. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. The silly thing is I want another child. Despite the fact that I used contraception, I still got pregnant last week. My husband said he would support me whatever decision I make. I dont regret it but I do have feeling about what if. I'm sorry Mamma, you couldn't eat and was having nausea. Not because I want to but because I feel I HAVE to. As the embryo grows I am constantly conflicted. My baby fever was at an all time high I was even looking at baby clothes. I have an appointment at planned Parenthood in 6 days and a doctors appointment tomorrow. He puts his hand on my thigh and asks, What do you want to do? I ask him, What do you want to do? He replies, I want to do whatever you decide. Im broken over this. We had to open up the conversation we thought was closed and re-examine our marriage and family. A group of doctors and conservative medical groups is suing to overturn the FDA's approval of mifepristone and a federal judge could rule to cut off . I, well, thankfully few days ago I conceived in your tummy. And the joy of playing with my friends. I still wonder if o made the right decision. I miss my baby constantly. God chose YOU to be my mommy, Dear Reverend (name), It is not without much time and thought that I have decided to address myself to you. I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. Because I was born, because I can talk and breathe air and because you can visibly see me in front of your face, I had the "right" to take my first baby's life away. When your raised in foster care it is because there is virtually no one else willing or able to care for you as a child. It could take several hours for the baby to die, and sometimes the baby didn't die at all and was born . Cate, Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. I hope I only delayed meeting my next little one instead of completely losing out on one unique beautiful baby, Thank you for sharing. Ugh. I am actually praying that it . We left the hospital with him saying we can try again. I'll do my very best to be good. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. Constant regret and pain . I am so heartbroken. He had a vasectomy and yet I ended up pregnant again. I prayed on it and as days went on my baby grew inside me but my symptoms from the pregnancy and the disease increased. . I recently found out I was pregnant after having a late period. People will yawn when they are bored of you. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. It has the potential to work, but like you said, doesnt make sense no matter how hard you look at it. Rapid thoughts flooded my brain. So heartbroken. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. My boyfriend and I have been together for 15 years, we have a 9 year old & make about $80K (maybe more) combined income but yet Im contemplating abortion. Best of luck xx, I had an abortion when I was too young to provide a child with the life it deserved. At 18 weeks, April and her husband found out that their baby had lethal skeletal dysplasia. On the way to the apartment he called and asked if I was hungry. Anyway. For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. She is a lover of writing, hiking, spending as much time outside as possible, and going to concerts. So at 26 years old, on April 10th, 2015, just as I had for months prior, I took a pregnancy test because I was eight days late. In 1971 a Catholic woman who wrote this letter had an abortion in New York. I told my mom who was not shocked and she said we should schedule it for the next day. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. Every now and then I am haunted. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. I feel guilty because I strjuglle to show real excitement when I know others want to when they find out and I feel so false trying to bounce off their energy. I am so sorry you had to go through this. Does anyone else feel similar? I didn't know you, but I loved you. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. Maybe you feel deep regret, maybe it was a confusing time, maybe you didn't care at all. I love this story. So please mommy, don't let me down. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. I am sitting with this sweet being I cannot support, and feeling so sad. I hope that helps you make the right decision for you. Also it will definitely be detrimental to my relationship with my husband. And when that day comes, well both be ready. Its killing me and Im crying every night. I have so much pain and hurt in my heart. I knew in my heart that I didnt want to let it go. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. Time went on and as I struggled with my decision he eventually came around. Xoxo , AUSTRALIA, My boyfriend does not understand either. I stared and I watched the second line darken and become more prominent. Only a few days have gone by since I was conceived and I am now growing in your tummy. Both in you, as a memory, and in heaven as a person, for eternity. But I want my baby so bad. I am heartbroken. We have only one flight of stairs, but I must have stood and then sat at least twenty times, unsure how to greet him. My daughter knows that Im pregnant and its a very stressful and uncomfortable situation. We are both unhappy . I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . The one person I need in my corner is not the there and I dont know if I can do this all over again at my age. Carroll's mom was about the same age as . I wish this decision wasnt so hard. It is a very hard decision to make thinking about having our fist baby but I have no choice. I dont want to go through an abortion again. However I was so sick I could barely make it to class and I was on the verge of going to the hospital for dehydration. You are raising two kids of his first marriage and the least he can do is to man up and respect your decision of keeping this baby. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. I stood up, pants around my ankles, and lost my footing, grasping onto the shelf that held toilet paper and Febreze. I just recently started a new job and I want to progress. Tears and snot are running down my face as I write this, I have 2 beautiful little girls after this and it hasnt got any better. The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. STOP! And I cry every single day. I know God and His angels will help. To be honest, the abortion probably saved my life. According to Florida's Reducing Fetal and Infant Mortality law, which was implemented last July, abortions are prohibited after 15 weeks of gestation, with a few exceptions, including one that. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. I was a late-in-life baby, the fourth child born when my mom was 42 in 1959. And then I panicked. And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. He is quite a bit older than me and has 2 kids of his own already. I had an abortion two years ago and I regret it in some ways, but in others I am massively grateful I did it.